And as the subliminal 7's fly high above....

I need...

2006-05-26T11:34:00.000-07:00

A new picture, and too get back to church. You know why I need these things. I had a little falling away from god, and that picture has been up there for over a year. As it is, the picture is two years old. I also need to update this more.But I will type more of this later, because I am in class an I need to get back to work.

Well...

2005-12-07T19:04:00.000-08:00

In the end, I chose Atheism. Nothing really makes sense, and I'm done subscribing to a religion that I can't confirm. Many friends have said "Well, I pray for you." or, "How can you live without anything to belive in?" or some have straight out said, "So you can't confirm your religion so you take the easy way out?" just some of the responses I have gotten from this choice. But I can't believe in something, that I hasn't shown me anything, that gives me a reason to believe. Whatever, I suppose that if God is out there then he will give me something to believe in, but until then, I cannot believe in God.

Over and out (For now)

NOTE: when i said that i haven't been shown anything I didn't neccessarily mean "senn with my own eyes" I mean that nothing has made me absoulutley sure that this is the truth.

Atheism, and Agonticism.

2005-11-25T04:00:00.000-08:00

I'm considering Atheism, after many years of being Agnostic. I was Christian before that. But I was a small child, and didn't fully understand christianity. After i learned more I started to have doubts. I became Agnostic around second grade. I still considered myself christian. I didn't even know Agnosticism existed. Hell in second grade the only religions I knew about where Christianity, and Judaism.
But in recent Monthes I have come to accept myself as an agnostic, and now, I am starting to see the idea that god might not be real a little more clearly. quite a few things are causing me to see it this way.
1.) God says in the bible that he will always answer our prayers, not just once but many times. But, if we stand in front of a pot of water, without flame under it, and pray for God to make it boil the water will not magically start boiling. Most christians rationalize this in many ways. Some of the rationalizations include "It is not his will." and "This request is trival." But god never once says do not pray to me about water.
2.) Christians recieve other religions stories, as pure fantasy, yet stories from their own religon are recived as truth. But, then again, members of the muslim faith reciave christian stories as illusion. Muslims are the only ones who believe in Mohammad. Mormons are the only ones who believe the stories of Joseph Smith, Buddhists are the only onst who believe in Buddah, and christians are the only ones who belive in Jesus. Which one is true? A christian would emmediatly say "The christian one". What is the proof that state, beyond a shadow of a doubt that the christian faith is the absoulute truth? Why, the Bible of course. But the muslims have the Koran, The Mormons have the book of Mormon. How are these any less credible than the Bible? "Well, the bible doesn't say anything about them." a Christian would argue, to which I would say "They don't say anything about the bible."
3.) A very wise friend of mine quoted this to me "If a man knows that he knows what he knows, and Knows that he doesn not know what he does not know. That man is truely wise." The whole system of faith, and belief is humanity treing to say that they know what they really dont have the slightest idea about.

So with all this floating around me how am I supposed to believe the christian faith, or any faith, is true. I can't. Still I can't help but shake this feeling I have I'll use an example.
I met my friend eric, at my old school. Then i went to a new school. in my second year at this school iw ent to erics house. there i met someone that eric knew, this person went by the name of Chris, and he went my school as well. soon i was hanging out with Chris at my new school. Are these events random, would i still have met Chris if i had not met Eric? I don't know. I'm pretty sure i would be asscoiating with a completely different group right now if one tiny thing had gone differently at my old school.
Lets say instead of becoming friends with Eric, i became his enemy. Chris is huge, very muscular. If i had become an enemy of Eric, maybe i would have become an enemy of Chris as well(I'm glad I didn't become Erics enemy because both Eric and Chris are super cool.) So what made it so that I became friends with Eric instead of enemies (While I hate to admit it there was a very brief period of time where there was friction between me and Eric.). Did this things happen just by coincidence? Or is there some higher force acting to make this happen. I am not saying that God is at work, but maybe it's nature, or some universla law. Maybe it is God. Maye God Really does exist.
Here is another peculiar tid bit about Eric and I. Erics mother almost sent Eric to my preschool, the school that i went ot for kindergarten, and to my elemntary school. but she did not because she did not think he would fit in there. Because of this I did not meet Eric until eighth grade. An atheist would say, "It's just because his mom thought he would fit in at the other schools, nothing more." A christian would say "God thought that it wasn't the right time for you and Eric to meet." Which one is right. I haven't a clue. I eed a sign, or some insight from somone who can help me. I need someone to show me the way, the right path. If anyone is out there that can help me I urge you to post a response to this in the comments section. Your input would be most appreciated.

Sam's Death "A Eulogoy for Sam"

2005-11-22T11:08:00.000-08:00

Sam, The Worlds ugliest dog three years running, died on friday, November 18, of hear failure. Owner susie lockheed stated that she doesn't think there will ever be another Sam. "Some people would see that as a good thing" she said.
I am a huge fan of sam, and i was very sad to find out about his death. Most of my friends were sad too. a couple were overjoyed. which was demented. Sam held a special place in my heart, and everyones hearts. he will be sorely missed.
Goodbye Sam.

Dear God!

2005-11-13T14:51:00.000-08:00

I seem to have fallen asleep on the job! i havent kept my amazingly small fanbase updated. nothing is really going on except for music you can check out my musical projects on myspace soon. other than that nothing. i have to right this report for the motion picture acadmy now, its about asians in the media, the most random asignment ever I know but whatever. I may be gone even longer. the impending report card is bound to get me grounded. I know i am failing one class. I improved in one, and took a nose dive in all the others. oh well. whatever.

My dear friend

2005-06-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

I called my friend the other day. I enjoy talking to him very much. But my parents didnt seem to trust him. They need to relax a little more. They need to trust me to make the right descisions. They are afraid that he is gonna kidnap me in ym sleep. I know he isnt, but they dont. They dont think i know how to stay safe, but i can. I told them this but they werent in a listening mood. either way i am not supposed to talk to him anymore. Doesn't mean i wont tho. Im not giving up the good fight, I may have lost the battle, but i havent lost the war.

I googlewhacked without cheating.

2005-04-11T22:48:00.000-07:00

i went on google about an hour or so ago and i typed in

AAAH YAHYAHYAH

and i google whacked it without an advanced search or anything. here is ther link http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=AAAH+YAHYAHYAH but with the constant changes in the web, it may not be there anymore.

googlewacking

2005-04-04T23:46:00.000-07:00

googlewhacking is the act of typing in two words into a googld search and turning up only 1 result. here is my convo with a friend on the matter.

Flipmyskirt xXx: Google whacking is hard.
GoldenPants123: i know
Flipmyskirt xXx: lol, i havent found one. you ?
GoldenPants123: nope
GoldenPants123: i have been trying all night
Flipmyskirt xXx: me too, i mean who the fuck writes about Insulin and Godzilla ?GoldenPants123: someone like you perhap? lol
Flipmyskirt xXx: lol, shut up.
GoldenPants123: who writes about Anxious Criminality
Flipmyskirt xXx: i dont know
Flipmyskirt xXx: http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&q=sagatarious+asteroid&btnG=Search
Flipmyskirt xXx: i spelled it wrong..but lol yeah i win
GoldenPants123: http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&q=%22Airborne+Carbohydrates%22
Flipmyskirt xXx: cool
GoldenPants123: and i didnt spell it wrong
Flipmyskirt xXx: lol shut up
Flipmyskirt xXx: ill get one, and i'll spell it right
GoldenPants123: http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&lr=&q=%22Hellish+Pickles%22
Flipmyskirt xXx: cool

i couldnt find one without cheating, cehating= misspelling, and advanced search. thee ya go get out there and googlewhack.

CAHSEE

2005-03-15T22:14:00.000-08:00

Today i took the CAHSEE (CAlifornia High School Exit Exam) it wasnt hard but it still drained me. i had to take it for three solid hours and then i didnt even get to go home. they made me go to fucking class. i think after that test we should be able to go home but nope we have to go to class. Tomarrow is the math section. And math is always a Mind Fuck for me. i hate it. i was failing math earlier in the year. i am gonna be drained. i think im just gonna go home tomarrow after the test, regardless of what they doo, or say.

Gray's Anatomy.

2005-03-12T23:09:00.000-08:00

another day in my world

2005-03-11T17:12:00.000-08:00

today there was a walk out in school. Well there was supposed to be one. very few people walked out, those that did went for the side gate or the front door. those that went to the front gate made it out safely, but those that went for the front door were met with police armed with tear gas. or so i'm told. This walk out was ment to support the teachers is something called a "Work to Rule" movement. this means that teachers only work for what they are paid for. this is effecting our education greatly. You can help make a diffence, you can Email Roy Romer, the Super intndant, at superintendent@lausd.net. Email him whether you live in LA or not. you can make a different.

Next Topic

Today we had a sub in bio. the front of this guys pants bulg out always. i had this guy a few times last year when he subed for algebra. We called him mister Elephant Nuts. We thought Chtien was a nightmare. we want her back after this guy. he was just terrible. i mean we werent little angle ourselves, but fuck this guy was just horrible. well thats all for today.

The Epiphany of the Day is:

"Don't fall asleep in class, people will wrote obscenities on you"

it happened to me today. i fell asleep in forth period, and i wake up, look at my arm and all this swears are written on my arm.

Today I........

2005-02-28T18:14:00.000-08:00

Well today i was walking to school and i saw a guy with a big sign that said...

Vote Jeff Borenstien for city council

So iasked the guy, what is this jeff borenstien going to do to improve our city. And the guy didnt tell me JACK SHIT. but he did say "Jeff Borenstien well the other guy said we can save money if we make the pounds kill animals after only 4 days and Jeff Borsnstien said HEY! DON'T KILL THOSE ANIMALS."

So anyway vote jeff borenstien he won't kill the animals. don't worry i will find out more about this guy and maybe even advertise a little for him if i agree with him.

So anyway, i have three out of ten math assignments missing. This means i am failing. aw well i know i have done two of them. they are probably in my book, so i will turn them in tomarrow.

NEXT TOPIC

I am so fuckin' pissed sideways didn't win best picture, and not only that the oscars snubed it. It was nominated for only three, Best supporting actor, Best Adapted Screenplay, and Best Picture of the Year. It won Best Adapted screenplay hands down, so why didn't it win best picture? Because the acadamy loves clint eastwood and hhis movie "million dolar Baby" was up for best picture as well. The acadamy doesn't seen to care about Alexander Payne too much. but whats done is done and its ok. the movie that wins best picture is never remembered (with the exception of titanic, gone with the wind, and West Side Story) A Beautiful mind for instance who remembers that movie seriously. So chances are in a few years time million Dollar Baby will be forgotten and Sideways will be standing tall like a light in the darkness. Not that i have anything against clint eastwood. he is a good actor and director, i loved the dirty harry series and Mystic River was Excellent as well. but i really wanted Sideways to win. i thought it wouold it was getting the best reviews and months after its debut it was still haveing full page colour advertisments in the paper and i was still seeing ads on TV. Sideways also won every Independant spirit award it was nominated for and thats saying something. IT DOMINATED THE IDEPENDANT SPIRITS! it probably whiped the floor with million dollar baby. because the people in independant film think outside the box, as most in mainstream dont with the exception of a few which will remain nameless. well thats all i have for today see ya soon with more on sideways, my math grade, Clint Eastwood, Alexander Payne, and Jeff Borenstien.

HI THERE!

2005-02-27T23:19:00.000-08:00

Well now, i (Censored) now have a girlfriend, your lives shall be spared.

here a weird one...

2005-02-27T11:34:00.000-08:00

ok so here is by far one of the weirdest dreams i have had in while. I was in boston and it was flooding. and for some weird reason a 40 year old guy was asking a 17 year old guy to throw a time bomb into this oversized manhole. well the guy walked out to do that, and he misjudged the size of the hole and he fell in. he screamed "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I'M FALLING!". so then my friend Katt was there and she was like. "That was my brother. which is weird because Katt is an only child. so anyway some dude was making fun of us for her "Brother" dying and then he went into his backyard and stepped on a weird part of this random ppile of snow and he was sucked underneath........................................it was quite cumtastic.

Slumber, i like sleep, sleep is fun.

1+1=?

2005-02-26T23:38:00.000-08:00

okay so i was discussing with jenny the concept of 1+1. here we go.

GoldenPants123: so whats up now

[withheld]: watchin' some sylvestor movie and some calculus

GoldenPants123: nice

GoldenPants123: if u know amth can you help me with something

[withheld]: sureGoldenPants123: whats 1+1 i have been scratching my head and pondering that one for ages and i just can't figure it out

[withheld]: theoretically, it's possible that it could be 3, but logically 2
GoldenPants123: yes that is why i am pondering it

GoldenPants123: i think it is three

GoldenPants123: take child birth [for instance] a man and a woman come together 1 and 1 then she gets pregnant and, unless the woman dies in childbirth or kills her husband in a mood swing she gives birth to a baby and three are left

GoldenPants123: thats one way of looking at it

[withheld]: there ya go

see weirdness

My Day

2005-02-26T19:32:00.000-08:00

It was pretty uneventful until good ol' Kelsy and erin came to my rescue. it wasn't very extravagant we just walked around the neighbor hood. i was pushed in a rondom shoping cart. it tipped over twice. luckily i landed on grass. then we hung out a kelsy's house for a while, and just did random shit. it was a fun day.

Ya know its the simple things in life you charish.

UPDATE!!!!

I forgot to put htis in there ear;ier. we we're walking down the street, Kelsy Erin and I, and we turned the corner and we saw the cops busting this midget for drugs. THE MIDGET GOT BUSTED FOR DRUGS! the cops took a bag of coke out of a fanny pack it was hilarious. then later we were talking about it and some guy over heard us so he flaged down a car to tell whoever was inside. it was FUNNY AS FUCK! so i suppose the whole neighborhood will know about it soon. but romurs change fast. chances are its gonna change from drugs to rapeing some dead fat woman, after he cooked her husband and made her son do drugs. well it was funny to watch some midget with a mullet and a blad spot. any way funny shit...funny shit.

New Stuff

2005-02-26T12:09:00.000-08:00

Not much to right about but i dont wanna just let this thing sit here like i did with my LiveJournal. so i will try to update frequently. i couldn't last night cuz i conked out early. I had an SAT plus class, and i got in trouble for playing with my phone. but i was losing at Blackjack anyway. but i have been in trouble at home alot, for fucking around in that class when i should be paying attention.

I wanna see sideways. but i dont wanna hafta sneak into it.

Politics

2005-02-24T23:41:00.000-08:00

I hate getting into political conversations. as far as politics go i try to remain neutral, but people force me onto one side. If i am talking about 9/11 to a group of ati-bush liberals they are going to assume i am pro bush simply because i suggest that bush might NOT have known about the world trade. The problem i have with that theory is that it seems like people just wanna blame someone. They can't just go "Ok They fucked us lets picko ourselves up and keep going." People always have to find someone to blame. And it pisses me off. I'm nt pro nor am I anti bush. but I am not going to sell out to this Micheal Moore bullshit.

Today i got into a political arguement with a friend and a few others on this topic and i was emmediatly branded as pro-bush. it pisses me off that people wont listen, but whatever they wanna remain ignorant let them remain ignorant.

JENNY!

2005-02-23T18:45:00.000-08:00

Well i met this girl on blogger. Her name is jenny, and she is really nice. Cute too. I IMed her and i like her alot (as a friend). well i must go to curch now. c ya.

This world is of pain and suffering.

2005-02-23T17:06:00.000-08:00

Well today at school was not good. I was not late for classes, i beat not get into fights or anything. It was just all my friends around me are in pain. Some shit has been goin' on in their lives and i dont like to see them like that. It seems everywhere i turn everyone has something going on in their lives that i am powerless to help with. What should i do?

Weird Dream

2005-02-23T07:31:00.000-08:00

it is about 7:31 in the morning. I am not really supposed to be on the computer but i had to tell of the cum tastic dream i had last night. I was all alone it was dark, then i heard a creaking noise. I looked uo and i saw two holes opening up in the ceiling. The where huge and shaped like eyes and light oured in through them. But i looked around and there was nothing all around me except for the steel floor on which i stood. I wonder what this dream means. Well gotta go to school and get my eda ma cation.

Hello

2005-02-22T20:28:00.000-08:00

Hello, it is I. The one and only (Censored). i would have made that my username, but some asswipe took it. but i am the one and only, there are no others. well this is my blogger. i heard about from my good friend Zen Clown, Good luck to him. well...enjoy.